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NEW BLOG!

2009-08-15T21:07:00.002+08:00

Damn blogger.
This is what you get if you don't let me upload photos.
I've tolerated enough mansxz!
I'm moving to lifejournal, hahah lol, go to hell blogger(:
My new blog everyone:
http://kex-texasmomma.livejournal.com/
Bye blogger.

在来不及以前，渴望来得及。

2009-08-07T18:11:00.001+08:00

Currently in love with Beyonce--Sweet dreams, go check it out! It's also at the top of my music playlist(:
Lyrics:
Turn the lights on

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head
Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around all of my thoughts
Boy you're my temporary high

I wish that when I wake up you're there
To wrap your arms around me for real
And tell me you'll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

遇见你有种似曾相识的感觉。

2009-08-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

Still cannot upload photo leh):
Blogger don't want to get my layered bob exposed.
Well, it's wish is granted.
whatever=.=
My beloved darl XiuMing's birthday today!
I guessed I had hugged her a little too tightly when I saw her early in the morning today :X
Sent her a birthday msg too, and will promise you, I'll get you a birthday present ASAP alright?
I still owe TangTang, JoyJoy and Denise birthday prsent too.
I'm gonna be broke in no time, i swear.
and Sarah Tan's birthday falls on this week too!
Financial crisis this whole month, at least for me.
August, such a hectic week.

Dedication to my special friend:
Mr JoyJoy,
I had fun with you from the first time I met you,
and I honestly love the way you are.
I love the times we laugh and cry together,
and espeacially the time that we laid in the middle of the parade square mansxz.
You're such a lovely girl, and you're the only one who I can pour out all my feelings to.
Hope you'll listen to what I've said so much that day yahh? you're just so naturally beautiful.
Love yourself yup?
(Ps. I will still keep our little secret x]
and btw, please return me my 5dollars, thanks JoyJoy!)

明白怀疑是一种判罪。

2009-08-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

Okay, guess what? I kept my promise, and went for a hair-cut yesterday.
"LAYERED BOB".
The outer layer of my hair is those short hair that is very common these days, like Victoria Beckham's. The inner layer, I kept it long. Shermin calls me the Jellyfish Blonde. Bastard lahhh xD. So it is similar to Rainie Yang's hairstyle in her Ren Yi Men's album. So it's like, I've got long and short hair. and the major problem now, I can't get my hair tied up! Tomorrow how to go to school? and the ponytail is like, lol lahhh. Wanted to upload the photos of my new hairstyle, Bogger can't ger my photos uploaded. Damn pissed with Blogger, can?
Not happy these few days, but this FELLOW cheered me up! lol, simple yet sweet.
And Joey is ow my liBRAry buddy. lol, that racist is planning to go library with me, my grandaughter so filial leh, not like my daughter, right Joy? ;DDD
2.4km run, didn't even bother today lah, tomorrow then i run, 'cause today I'm lazy HEE.
Sexual education tomorrow, whoots~

珍惜一切就算没有拥有

2009-07-30T21:34:00.002+08:00

Was out of my mind today, didn't know what had gotten into me lahhh.
Was not paying attention in Miss Huda's lesson in geog elective class today, 'cause I didn't bother to, thought she didn't deserve my respect. Then she got super pissed off with the whole class, and asked SiYing and me to be more mature in her class. Could feel my blood boiling lahhh! She was insulting us in front of the class leh, I didn't appreciate it at all. Then she was super guailan. She then requested to see us after the lesson, then here comes the good game.
"What's the problem with you guys? Is it so hard to pay attention in my class?"
Silence.
"Today is my last lesson with you all, and I hope you both will buck up for your O levels."
I started to talk. "Did you say that it's your last lesson with us today?" I was waiting for her to say yes, and she did.
"Why? You happy that Miss Ng comes back to teach you is it?"
I said nothing, but was grinning from ear to ear, elated that Miss Ng will be back to teach us, or rather, elated that we won't be taught by her anymore.
"You don't like me is it?" She asked causually.
At that time, I really didn't really know what I did, but from what SiYing said, she said i raised one eyebrow at her and gave her a smirk. Ohno! Bang. And I thought Miss Huda dieD from my response lahhh, but of course, she didn't.
Maths lesson afterwards, she totally didn't wanted to engage the whole class.
Went around asking many people, and most of them agree with me, no one like her, at all.
My advice for her? Change her occupation, she's not suitable to be a teacher, she's not passionate about teaching since day 1, but okay, good try and you're quite courageous to play the role as a teacher too. So, really hope that you will give up teaching, and find some other jobs that suits you more.

Then went CompassPoint in the evening, boarded 83 and didn't realise that Celine was on the bus too untill we alighted. I cuasai. Was wondering who is that girl, 'cause I thought her hair was very beautiful, lol. Went home with her too, and how sweet can she be? If I were a boy, I'll definitely fall for her lah, no doubt.

风若停了云要怎么飞？

2009-07-26T20:54:00.003+08:00

Damn it, something's wrong with blogger, thanks to Shermin, problem is solved! Can this dedication be enough for you, Shermin? Short and sweet wahahah.
Could feel my muscles aching everywhere with every inch I move, but it's worth it! Yesterday was Inter-class games marathon, and with much determination, our class got 3rd in Captains' ball. I didn't think we could win, as our opponents were all so strong! got 309/310 girls, and 301/305 girls. How to win? Damn unlucky we got to play against them. But Shermin came to rescue in time! Our first match, played against 309/310 girls. Didn't have any strategy at that time, and those girls were so powerful lah. So in the end, the match turned out like a catfight. Rolling together on the floor, snatching of the ball, knocking down each other, wah, quite rough leh. We lost to them by a bit, but didn't get demoralised yet, then MinJian came to help us improve on our strategy! lol, Coach MinJian really helped us a lot, techniques like Slide. Haha and then our class spirit starts to develop. 2nd match was against 306, but it's a walkover. the last match, is a die-die-must-win one. that's the last and only one that can get us into the semi-finals. Fought real hard, the girls played quite rough too, but we won them 6-7. Close one mansxz. then in semi-finals, played against class 409, wah that's the real rough game. I got hit in the mouth by ******, and it hurts like hell lah, went home to find my lips swollen. I don't like her lah, she hit me I didn't even say anything, I accidentally hit her then she diao me from head to toe. NOT FAIR OKAY? But honestly they quite zai lah, and i thought their goalie was quite friendly. We lost to them, and won 311, and we are 3rd in position. If only QiaoYi was here, first place wouldn't be that hard. Had a lot of fun with fellow classmates, and though it was a rough day for some of us, we still tried our very best. Didn't lke the class in the beginning, but now, I DO. Couldn't upload photos, so kindly go to Jynnlyi's blog to see(:

Friends around me are starting to have relationship problems. Should I be glad that I'm not involved in a relationship? Seeing them in sorrow makes me lose faith in relationships, lose faith in guys. Asked SiYing a question yesterday, when will a guy ever grow mature. Her reply? Guys are just guys. The perfect guy that i desire, the guy who is in my fantasy, he's one in a million. Till when will we ever meet? of the many guys that I've met, nobody have made the cut yet, even the one that I thought I loved. I need someone who is mature.

and I've decided to create a private blog, but this will still be updated(:

Could only see the shadow you left.

2009-07-17T16:44:00.005+08:00

Take a good look at this photo. Okay, I'm to blame for the poor photoshooting skills lahhh. This photo is taken few months back, and i took it while Rachel, Valerie and YongSheng went pasa malam to buy food. What happened to YuHui and JiaYi now leh? Ehh, what happened ahh? Jaywhy, I know you comfirm will dulan with me because I blogged it, but do you really want YuHui to break up with her boyfriend then you happy? So sad to see you all like that lor.
And btw JayWhy ah, how's your tummyache? Still that pain ah? Glad to see many people so concerned about your diarrhoea, right? LOL

My dream last night, just a short one:My parents shut themselves into their bedroom, and sensor sensor lah! Wah, ridiculous daughter dreaming of their parents er-hum. OHmy.

And TangTang's birthday is just tomorrow! Sianzzz, but he'll not be free over the weekends leh, how to celebrate sia? And i still got no idea what to buy for his birthday lah):

Nothing bites like reality.

2009-07-16T21:50:00.002+08:00

O level chinese oral today, very lol lah. both the teachers were "Umm"-ing away, felt quite distracted too lah. Joey, was too straightforward lah! Fancy saying that,"我不喜欢马来人". Joey ahh, I just pray hard for you that you wouldn't be having your chinese oral again next year.
And lately, I've been dreaming most of the nights lah. Got different themes somemore. Horny with xxx in bed, Romance when i found out that the other party is dead and i'm willing to die for him , Jealousy because SiYing sang better than me and weirdest dreams that I could dream of. So from today onwards, I shall post all my dreams on my blog! lol, I can't for my first fancy dream to expose on this blog lah teehee.

Till then I must bide my time,

2009-07-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

CHOY, PUI CAO NUA.
My sister is acting like a bitch today, making me run all the way just to return books for her, ohhcrap.
today, i really did a lot of digging and digging, but still could dig out the secret that SiYing is hiding from me, damn sad. And to everyone out there, actually, ChengYee is more stupid than me lah, that's a fact, she's super obvious okay? Sorry Berlin, Charissa, Joeleen and Michelle, actually I didn't know what the secret is lah, I'm just lying to ChengYee and SiYing lol. and please don't poke me with the fork! :X OK, but since SiYing said it is for my own good to not know the secret, so from now on I shan't bug you all to know le lah. But SiYing, you promised to reveal it after O levels yah? :D
And I've already decided on wishes/aims for my specific birthdays! and I die die got to fulfill them, no matter what(: See, I'm determine as ever.
18 years old- to got a tongue piercing, whoots!
20 years old- a pet dog! must be cute, and 'cause I'm selfish, so it can only belong to me and only me;D
21 years old- believe it or not. I'm gonna adopt 2 young children from those countries like probably Nepal or Africa??? I've checked the web, and there's an organisation which you just got to give around 50dollars plus a month to provide a child with food, shelter and studies. and you can also contact them via letters and photographs. I wanna adopt 2 kids, 1 boy 1 girl, brothers and sisters better still lah. Can't wait to turn 21 and shower those kids some love~
Haha, I think I sould like a saint.(:

The words carried to my ears are a whisper.

2009-07-08T21:30:00.007+08:00

How I'll look like in short hair(((:

Should I cut my hair short like Jiayi's or short like Michelle's? Or should I keep it long? Aww, it's so hard to decide.

Miss Kuck finally changed our class's sitting arrangement. Sian Ge Lau Sai, you wouldn't believe that I'll be sitting next to WeiJian for the rest of the term lah! Wah, SiYing, all I wanna say is, YOU DAMN DAMN DAMN HENG! Sitting with JoeyTayHuiMin, shiok right? Laugh all you want at me lor. And my darling cut her fringe today, wah, cute lor(;

Ahaha, this is what i bought, love it lah.

Out with Rachel and Joy that day, photos here they come!

End of the day I spent only $8.50 with them(:

All I wanna say to you all is,

I'm sorry.

Please don't be mad at me, please.

Consumed by the chill of solitary.

2009-07-05T22:26:00.006+08:00

Damn it, I'm damn pissed. I can't upload photos lah, soory people, it's fate that you can't see my pretty photos le lah. I give up, I'm afraid i'll smash up my computer bleahhhhh. Went vivo today, thought I saw SiYing lah, but I think not her lah, 'cause she was with this fat girl, then thinking of it, I think I'm her fattest friend that she could find lor. So comfirm not her. Then went to try this dress, WAH! I love it lah(: and i bought it cheap, at $29.50, 'cause I bargain with the owner and she gave me 20% off. Wanted to post it up for you all to see lah, but damn sad, seems like the IT idiot can't do the uploading. But I'm gonna wear it tomorrow when we go out to celebrate JoyJoy's birthday! We will be B-boxing and smashing cake on Joy's pretty face. I'm gonna SING-TILL-I-DROP. HEHEH. and damn sad, I've used my last pair of contact lens today, so I got to reuse it tomorrow lah, unhygenic leh :X

To ******:

Why did you make such comments about me?

We were once friends, but seems like we are like strangers now.

So you need not know what I'm doing in my daily life,

or even ask about me.

Why do you act so weird?

I loved you, once.

But okay, all I can say is,

I'm just stupid.

ChengYee and SiYing can't even believe it lah.

Aiyo, I don't know.

Why did I even write this?

I'm confused.

Wah! I need to frustrate(:

Ps. SiYing, I'm quite affected by the phonecall he made you thing lah.

I don't believe your blood is bad to the bone.

2009-07-03T18:55:00.002+08:00

Ask yourself 2 questions.
Question 1: What will you do if you accidentally cracked your index finger and your friend tell you that you had fractured it, and you unknowingly believe it?
A-Cry out loud and let self-pity enter you.
B-Get over it soon.
C-Tell yourself,"It's no big deal."
Question 2: What will you do if your good friend sitting next to you pokes you hard on your right thigh with her mechanical pencil?
A-Cry out loud and let self-pity enter you.
B-Get over it soon.
C-Tell yourself,"It's no big deal."
Both my answers? Straight As.
Damn it, I can't believed I cried in English class because they told me i broke my finger. KaiWai, all I can say is, YOU WERE TOO STRONG MANSXZ. I think everyone freaked out right? I'm sorry. The maths lesson after reccess, my good friend, SiYing, poked me hard on my thigh with the pencil she uses to draw her perfect circles. Why? Because I INTENDED to unbuckle her bra. But you see, I INTENDED. but i didn't! She stabbed my so hard till I started crying again. Damn it! I thought the lead was inside my body, freaking freaked out. Shermin checked, and the lead wasn''t there. and ohh Shermin, I'M NOT CRAZY OKAY? :DDD I might look like I was crazy just now, but I'm not. In fact, the crazy ne was SiYing. I didn't call IMH in time, that's why i got a big hole on my thigh. So to all, if you see any isane people on the streets, please call IMH asap, as you don't want them to harm you, like how SiYing did to me, ayh. Damn paisih, I think I acted like a 5 year old kid than a 15 year old kid right? Wah, paiseh :X

My sister's 13th birthday today, hey, seriously I hope you will grow more mature and stop fighting with me, because you know I won't give in that easily to you, heehee. LOVE YOU LAH.

You make your best shot too hot to hold.

2009-07-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

I would like to take this time to clarify things now.

I don't know what you are thinking and doing,

But please, I myself have dignity.

So please stop whatever that you are doing,

Because you wouldn't want anything unpleasant to happen, do you?

And because of you, people judge me.

You gave people opportunities to judge me.

As what? Cheap slut.

Forgave you once, but now, I couldn't.

Had been thinking of this for the whole day, and I admit that because I had kept silent, that's why you continued.

Wah, damn pissed.

I don't wanna name who this bastard is,

but i honestly hope you can act more maturely,

and STOP it.

STOP.STOP.STOP.

I beg you, please?

Can't give up on love.

2009-06-30T20:39:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday JoyJoy!
I promise we'll go out and celebrate your birthday, and I'm still looking for a present for you, hee(: and in the future, if you got any problems or feeling some kinda emotional can come find me talk de hor, will always lend you my listening ear(((:

in class, been having chatting sessions with MinJian, Shermin and Siying. very lol lah, Shermin loves freaking me out, and both of us will me reminiscencing memories in primary school. That 6C big gang! WAH, I damn hum. and don't know what's wrong with SiYing getting so agitated over an eraser.=.=

and i wanna watch Obsessed, showing in theatres 9July. JoyJoy wanna watch with me? :D

Don't ask the obvious.

2009-06-28T15:25:00.007+08:00

This is Wentworth Miller, and I've been watch the series of Prison Break, partly because of him lah, aiyo, i so shy :X

Prison Break 4 is showing on Channel 5, Tuesdays to Thursdays, 10pm to 11pm. It's the climax of the show now, as Don Self betrays the brothers and co. after getting Sylla, and Michael Scotfield(starring Wentworth Miller) is having a major op. Die die must watch!

School is reopening tomorrow. SIAN-GE-LAU-SAI!

I'm so not looking forward to it, 'cause I have not finish my homework, and I am having a serious problem with my Literature. Boo!

Bye, i got to continue withmy Literature):

Trying to walk away from a life of sorrow.

2009-06-25T15:44:00.002+08:00

It's Amanda Khoo's and YapXinHorng's 15th birthday today, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANSXZ!
Couldn't make it for the surprise party for XinHorng today, too sudden liao! YongGuan called me to go for it, but I got tuition at 1plus): Sorry leh.
And wish to celebrate Amanda's birthday in school when school reopens lah(:
Couldn't really sleep last night, I guess I ate too much that's why. So sleepy now larrrrrh!
And mummy just bought a new washing machine today, and I didn't get a chance to bid farewell to the old one.))): SO SAD RIGHT? awwww...

When good and evil meet.

2009-06-25T15:16:00.004+08:00

YESTERDAY
Went to catch transformers on the day it premieres. How dumb can we be? Ran from place to place, and finally got available seats at Marina. Wth??? Just turn around and you can do counting of the heads for the entire movie in the cinema lah. Goddamn lot of people. Was sitting in the middle of Rachel and YongSheng, can't stand it. When it was screening Megan Fox, YongSheng couldn't help but to:"OHH~" No further descriptions(:
Comments on the movie? Catch no ball ahh! Ohh because Rach and YongSheng said that you got to watch the first one to understand, so basically, I wasn't that impressed with the movie lah.
After the movie, we went YukiYaki for dinner and Joy joined us too. Huat ahh! Ate a lot more than I expected, OHNO. Dealing with weight issues here):

Who is uglier? No doubt, its JoyJoy :x

She eats more than I do(:

Confession: I ate 12 cups of ice-cream.

YongSheng. We saw Denise and co. there too.Ahaha, JoyJoy, Rach and me. Rachel always got a pimple on her nose ;x

To you, I bare my heart.

2009-06-21T17:40:00.002+08:00

Happy Fathers' Day!

I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy. I love my Daddy.

Ahaha, that was my dedication, Dad(:

Changed my science tuition, this time this tutor was very LOL. I wasn't prepared to have such a science teacher, so I couldn't resist but to burst out with laughter, he might think that I'm crazy, I don't care anyway. How do I describe him? A man in his late-40s, 1.55cm TALL, almost balding, and one word to describe him. GANJIONG. Super damn ganjiong lah, when he speaks, when he writes, when he drinks, when he walks, even when he goes to the toilet. So weird. But he teaches well, so I'm stuck forever with this science tutor! oh well, what can I say?

My life is a half-filled cup.

2009-06-19T15:56:00.003+08:00

Met up with TeKai today, just a little while because he was rushing for time. So, catch up with him a little bit and then, bid farewell.
No mood to continue blogging le.
Bye.

Read between the lines.

2009-06-15T16:17:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, it was the day that my mum turned 40years old, and she said that women starts sagging EVERYWHERE once they turn 4oyears old, I worry for you mummy! Haha, i don't want to see your boobs sag, neither does daddy(:
and sorry mummy, for making your birthday an unhappy one, forgive me?(:
Went for tuition early in the morning, and was super paiseh because i can't stop the hiccups, bobian, hiccupped for the entire tuition.
Family chalet tomorrow at east coast, clashing with my class BBQ ont the day after tomorrow, and TeKai will be back on that day too. Woah, got to do major prioritzing man.
SIANBALLS!

I threw my destiny away,

2009-06-13T22:48:00.003+08:00

TODAY
Ahaha. Went to meet YapXinHorng at Interchange today, then he damn gay lor, honestly. Then we went Hougang Green Bbox for karaoke. Told him about the,"Err... Can I book a.. book a..." thing, damn xiasui can? Then SiYing and ZhiYang met us there. ZhiYang totally loves Qing Fei De Yi! Zaoxia and zaoxia and continue zaoxia. HAHA. XinHorng? Ah, you can just shut up lah, actact sing JayChou's songs, would really thank you if you could just shut up and let me sing, haha:X! But one thing, you really sounded like James Blunt(: Had a lot of fun time singing with SiYing, all the AngelaZhang's songs, cannotmakeit man! XinHorng and ZhiYang, being as lame as ever, decided to sing a vietnamese/indonesian song, and it sounds like total crap leh, the auntie outside came peeking into the room to see if everything's alright lah, diao. And KaiWai couldn't make it lah, so sad, without him then not a clique liao mah. and whoops! got to confess that I've forgotten completely about HunQuan during the whole Karaoke lah): SORRY.

ZhiYang, Me, XinHorng and Siying!

This one very LOL, ZhiYang look like shit lah.

That's ZhiYang and me(:

XinHorng, okay, i got to admit he look gay in this photo.

This is LuiSiYing, sorry for making such a fuss in the bus today, that bug really gave a big shock to me, and I'm really very afraid of it):

Tomorrow it will be my mummy's birthday! She will be turning 40years old liao, hope she will be more mature lah haha(((: Love you always, mum.x333

How can I smile with the tear in my eye?

2009-06-13T22:45:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY
Went out with Rachel and YongSheng and went to catch Land of the Lost. Had lunch at Hougang Mall first, and HongJoo and Company were there too, and quite lol, talking about the difference of HongJoo's mum and him. Quite big difference ahh haha(; Then went Cathay, and Samantha was there too lah! YongSheng freaked out quite a bit, okay, can tell why he freaked out so much, judging by the way she dressed up :X Then the movie was... OKAY LOR. I prefer Drag me to hell, and don't know when will I be watching that. XinHorng says he wanna watch, I don't know when got time leh. Then YongSheng pissed me off as he shops for his things and i was exactly his dog at that moment, waiting for him as he tried on his clothings and was holding his drink for him. Walao, seriously I don't appreciate it. Then went home and brought my hamster to a vet at Hougang Mall. So sad! He got a big pus on his paw and can't really walk that much. Then so pitiful, worried sick for him):
On the way home, and i saw Ellen and her boyfriend, lol, she changed more chio quite a bit now, haha(:
And her boyfriend looks quite familiar leh:X

Kissing the loneliness goodbye.

2009-06-11T20:39:00.004+08:00

Biting my nails and racking my brains now.
Sudoku held in my hand, but it took me 2hours and 26minutes, I still can't solve it.
they rated it 3/5stars, could it be that hard right?
Sian, am I stupid or stupid?):
Maybe going out with Rachel and YongSheng tomorrow, but first got to get the list of Buffet places from JoyJoy.
And JoyJoy, i think i can make it on this Sunday:DDD
But you cannot pangseh me! I don't know your friends lor.
I hope XiuMing did understand what i told her that night. Don't worry! You've got chosen because potential is seen in other people's eyes, so don't doubt yourself(:

He's coming back, but why don't i feel anticipation at all?
Why? I have always waited for this day and, yet i don't feel anything.
Those mails he sent me, why don't i have any emotions to them?
Gosh, this is plain shit.

Show me affection.

2009-06-10T21:38:00.002+08:00

Wah sian! SiYing now want say, don't want say.):
siying says:btw ppl shy to elaborate but hm, can say things are going really well with Keith :D
siying says:infact...............................
KEXIN says:omg!
KEXIN says:you steaded with him?
siying says:LOL :D
siying says:no lah well~
KEXIN says:walao!
KEXIN says:is how?
siying says:kekekekekeke
KEXIN says:you lying to me again?
siying says:*am giggling*
KEXIN says:SHIT
siying says:aw, can only wait til sat ti know eh.
KEXIN says:really ?
KEXIN says:say leh
siying says::P
KEXIN says:you don't say then i don't turn up on saturday
siying says:....................
siying says:dont turn up on sat then u dont get to know~~~!!! :D:D :-O:-O :P:P
KEXIN says:YOU SAY EH
siying says:keke i reading ur blog lah taoyan
KEXIN says:say leh faster

She still don't wanna say. What darling are you ahh? Say leh say leh say leh saty leh!
If you really stead with Keith then must matchmake his chaffeur with me hor, i don't care ;DDD
and if you all stead liao don't pangseh me, if not i ask him chaffeur not to fetch you all at the hotel(((:

Something causing fear to fly,

2009-06-10T20:53:00.006+08:00

This is a picture taken yesterday(From the left:Rachel,Joy, Me, Joey's ass, Denise and Ivy.) Total self-timer failure, with Joey's backside facing the camera. Hey Joey, get your ass out of there please!
Went to do street sales at AMK yesterday, so hot, so sian!
And i saw JunLong and his stead at the Mrt platform, wow! they last so long lah, hope they last long long haha, so compatible.
Took a good look of many ghostly apartments of AMK, really scary 'cause i thought i saw someone in the lift, but apparently nothing was inside, apparently i saw something that shouldn't be inside. Damn it.
Walked home with Peter, it was super dark and damn cockcroaches man!
Almost stepped on a freaking alive cockcroaches, screamed and jumped and shrilled and over-reacted and i think half of the neightboorhood would think a murder case had happened.
i hope the cockcroach have internet access at the place that it is living in and i hope i could read and i hope it would view my blog.
here is a dedication for this cockcroach: Hey, seriously, don't appear in front of me again man! i will make your life miserable this time, wouldn't let you off that easily this time man, you better shoo far far away now.

Just turned on my computer, and XinHorng was desperately asking me the price for the Karaoke place that we will be going on Saturday, told him it would be cheap, don't worry. he repled,"ok SUI." wlaao! cheapskate leh XinHorng. Haix, no hope lor this guy. and he don't wanna say me cute lah, so saddening): then afterwards he complained to me that he his name is not written on my previous post. walao! Really no hope ahh, really. and goodluck to be the spiker of the team anw, don't throw my face(((:

And OMG! Darling, this time really serious liao, Mr Saturday msged me leh :X
Shhhh......
haha, tell you more the next time i see you lah, and have fun wih all the little children, and have fun with your Keithfer- boy(((;

Daylight's fading, angels waiting.

2009-06-08T19:57:00.002+08:00

YO.
Today is a Monday.
Yesterday is a Sunday.
Tomorrow is a Tuesday.
Life's a boredom man.):

Anyway, the '05 clique outing will be on this coming Satuday, I'm really sorry that HunQuan couldn't make it on that day, seems like everyone's schedule crashes :X
So there will only be KaiWai, SiYing, ZhiYang and me that day.
But all are welcome to join us too! As we always say, The more, the merrier(;
Please self invite yourself or msg me to check.

Oh and my class307 will be having BBQ on the 17th, can probably predict that everyone will be in their own cliques and no participation in anything liao, sian ahh.

Tomorrow will be a tough day man, gonna do good deeds and sell flowers for the entire day(((;

Would you really love, any second glance?

2009-06-04T15:22:00.002+08:00

Sargeant's week end tomorrow.
Damn, i bet it'll suck big time.))):
And i think my neighbour had probably constipated for a year or so and just let it all out.
I don't know why is the room filled with the smell of farts and shit and whatever you can call that!
Damn it stinks and I'm getting out of the room as soon as possible before i faints(:

Now you're fading out of reach,

2009-06-01T22:16:00.003+08:00

Cheat my feelings!
Nicholas and Derek said that they wanted to watch movie with me today, then Nicholas MIA-ed.
=.=
you all jio me out then MIA.
=.='
so basically, today i just did some of my holiday homework and stone all day at home.
=.="''
And LuiSiYing's first day of work!
haha, i whole day kiaoka at home, and she's out there taming little kids.
100dollars per week, valu for dollar mah?
When is the '05clique going KBOX???
SiYing can't make in on weekdays, and HunQuan can't make it on weekends, like that jiu good game liao lor.
KaiWai, XinHorng and ZhiYang all steady de, like me! wahha.
High possibility is, we will be going on weekends without HunQuan, because HunQuan is pushing us too far!
you cannot always use tuition as your excuse right???
find something better then that, boy.
and I've watched Slumdog Millionaire twice already, really a great show!
I pity the blinded boy):
overall, thumbs up for that movie(:

I would like to know why,

2009-05-31T17:21:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, went Valerie's birthday party(((;

Headed down to CompassPoint first to wait for the double ONGs, OngChengYee couldn't make it, leaving me to wait for OngJiaYi there. I was damn pissed off, calling everyone to ask where on earth Jaywhy is, 'cause I've been sitting inside KFC for 34minutes and was so sian that i did a head count, a total of 116people headed into KFC in that 34minutes, and none was JiaYi. Gave up waiting and decided to go to Valerie's condo on my own, EHH!

Bumped into JiaYi, she didn't seem remorseful at all for making me wait. SHIT YOU, JiaYi.

Reached there, and bumped into JiaHui and YuTing, JiaHui on her way to celebrate her birthday with her mum, and i shared a secret to JiaYi and YuTing that i wasn't supposed to say, and made Rachel angry!

Sorry Rachel):

Throughout the whole party, I've been running in and out of the toilet, as i could not stand the heat and their toilet is air-conditioned.

and halfway through the party, my phone die-ded. SIAN! couldn't take anymore pictures))):

JiaYi got a big face.

This is Rachel.

This is Celine.

This is MinJian.

This is GeokMin with her super straight hair.

I found out that Joey loves to watch football.

YongSheng Bro.(SHHH, I cannot say anything, right?)

Valerie, thanks for inviting me to your birthday party(:

THIS IS MY DARLING(((:

Later, Valerie cuts her cake and made her wishes.

Hey, what did you wish for man??? haha.

the party ended with SiYing and JiaYi both in the water, SiYing got her hair still dry and i wonder how she did that, and JiaYi got herself a chicken little hairstyle.

Any kind soul can send me the group photo we took at the end of the party?

and Michelle S is flying back to Indonesia tomorrow, Bon voyage girl! I won't be sending you off liao, you take care ;DDD

The littlest things that take me there,

2009-05-30T14:36:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday GohJiaHui!

And I'm going to Valerie's birthday party later, but meeting ChengYee and JiaYi to get her birthday present first. Btw Jaywhy took 1dollar from the GB fund to buy a drink for herself. RETURN ME THE MONEY HOR!

Took back report book yesterday, was 15th in class, comparing to last place in class last year, wahhh! I'm a pro liao lor(((;
and TangTang-TangZhiYang, got first in his class! Hehe, proud of you lah, proud of you.
and that china scholar who did so badly, only 2 words for you. "GO HOME!"
even I am smarter than you.
Xinhorng gave me lame excuses like,"aiyo we all triple science cannot compare with you all combined science lah," when i asked him for his level position. He's just embarrassed to say his only lah.

and CCA yesterday, whoots!
I know i very power lah, thank you.
i sold like so many flowers, enough to save a cancer patient liao LOL.
thank you ChongYu, HaoZhe, MrToo, Peter, Marcus and blahblah for purchasing(:

PTM yesterday? i don't wanna talk much about it man, and SiYing, Ms Kuck says that she'll be spliting us up next term! Sians, i will miss you de))):

and Cyrus says he wanna go back to NCPS. for what man??? it's been 3years, I've only payed my teachers a visit once, and that's all, i bet none of them will remember me de lah. they won't remember you too lor, Cyrus.

I live just to die for my beliefs.

2009-05-28T20:10:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday Valerie!

Still don't know what to buy for her leh.

We wanted to buy her Vodka, but Amanda says we can share for the bikini.

Gonna turn up for her birthday party this saturday!(:

2days ago, limelight was held at the Esplanade, but i didn't attend it, went out with ChengYee and SiYing to catch Night at the Museum 2 instead. LOL.

on the right, SiYing can't stop laughing throughout the movie, and on the left, ChengYee was complaining she was super cold for the entire movie. Me? I was chewing on my popcorn. :XXX

And LuiSiYing the Miss Perfectionist ahh, give everything a try lah, cannot let opportunies go so easily leh, don't so stress hor!(((:

And ChengYee, tomorrow must continue the unfinished gossip you shared today at the busstop hor(((:

HEE.

Parent-teacher meeting tomorrow. OhhhhhhhMyGOD.

I guess Ms Kuck will be merciful tomorrow and not say too much unnessesary comments about me to my mum, but as for Mdm kuay*Oops!*, i mean, Mdm Gwee, i'm super not sure man. She seemed to have a lot of complaints about me and SiYing. LOL.

Good luck to me ahh, good luck.

Like to sit this silent moment out

2009-05-25T20:12:00.002+08:00

Now I've finally learnt something that I'm supposed to be taught long ago- is to treasure.
That Angel had taught me how to do it, and Thank You, Angel.^^

At first, when I see you cry,

It makes me smile,

Yeah it makes me smile.

At worst, I felt bad for a while,

But then I just smile,

I go ahead and smile.

Goodbye, yesterday.

2009-05-22T16:03:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday KaiWai!
He finally turned 17years old today(:
Last long with Charissa yeapyeap?(((:
Early in the morning, waited for Siying at busstop with ChaoWang, and togethr we bought a doremon cake at the bakery shop, because Kaiwai likes to "SHEN CHU YUAN SHOU".
wahhaa.
hope kaiwai liked the cake we bought(:
Today is a sian day.
so sian.
SO SIAN.
the sian-ness is deadly, it makes me feel so nauseous.
SHIT.

Your tears come from inside.

2009-05-21T19:39:00.002+08:00

Sian.
SIAN.
Early in the morning, and dad took the initiative to talk to me about my results,and he make it sound as if like I didn't work hard for the MYE. Lol??? like he don't have eyes to see or what? don't he see me revising and revising and revising for the past weeks when he comes home? and no matter how stupid or clever I am, I'm still his daughter mah. Sian, why is everyone expecting so much from me? just what do you all want? SIAN. I seriously hate the part when we have to take back our results, it just sucks, like hell.
Papers that i took back today, probably would give my parents another series of heart attacks, you can guess it already lor.
Combined humanities, which I'm seriously keen in dropping but to no avail, i got 41/100.
Literature, i got 60/100 for it, which was the only paper i guess which would not bring my parents to heart disease or anything similar like that.
and the whole level did not do any better than me, i think?
anw, I should enjoy the anti-exam mood now, just gonna throw everything at the back of my mind.
Kaiwai's birthday is tomorrow, he's turning 17!
wait patiently hor, 1 more year and you can.... HAHA.
and today's true or dare, Kaiwai, better keep everything to yourself! *winks*

Written on her head was "failure to conform"

2009-05-20T21:14:00.002+08:00

Holy Shit.
okay, my results suck, which i didn't expected it to happen.
for the past 2years, all i did was blind revision, which you could say i didn't revise at all, but this year, I am a totally changed girl who does her revision all day long and even copy her notes.
so I'm expecting better results that I can boast to my parents that I'm not as idiotic as they think I am, but i guess i can't.
I failed science, got 48.5/100 for it, damn it.
I failed Emaths, got 49/100 for it, damn it.
I merely passed English, got a C5 for it, damn it.
I merely passed HigherChinese, got 113.5/200 for it, damn it.
the best have yet to come, my most jialat combined humanities'results will be up on my blog tomorrow, and yah, you can already guess what I would get for it.
I can honestly tell you that I have not pass any of my Egeog or SocialStudies paper before, so for my Midyears, I really don't expect anything man.
okay, but at least I can tell myself that I didn't regret not working even harder for Midyear, I tried my best, and I feel proud of myself.(:
Timothy got F9 for both maths papers, and he said that he felt guilty to disappoint his parents. Lol, Timothy ahh, jiayou and you'll reach your goals, really lah.
Ervin, he was really disapponted with his maths too but, aiyo, maths idiot ahh! i know you've done your best liao lah, and i can free tutor you de lol. all the best for your EOY, cannot fail again liao hor.
And to those minority who failed English and worry that you all will get retained, you all got me! Haha, today my heart really ached, Siying had said so many harsh words that broke my heart into many many many many many many many many pieces. She say that I will get retain and i suck pen inks and I'm stupid. ))):
okay, i wish that my literature paper can pass with flying colours.
RED.
ORANGE.
YELLOW.
GREEN.
BLUE.
INDIGO.
VIOLET.
which makes up to a rainbow(((:

Just so you know,

2009-05-19T15:38:00.003+08:00

Totally missed the catfight scene between EuniceFoo and Jiayi, damn it!
and Siying changed her blogskin! can't wait to cange mine too, but I'm a total IT idiot.
Who's gonna help me???
okay, shall go search for blogskins now(((:

Stop, go, fail, suceed? Live or die? I just got to believe.

2009-05-18T20:12:00.002+08:00

Wanna apologise to BerlinOh, ChengYee and Siying, for not swimming with you all!
:XXX
But did lots of shopping today still, haha. >.<
Saw SiYing in that bikini, was... dumbfounded?
is this word appropriate? i guess so haha!
to my greatest regret, i didn't get to see Berlin wearing her swimswit, ChengYee commented that Berlin looked sexy in that! lol shit should have stayed right?
Confessed to ChengYee and Siying, both of them were terribly shocked.
i think my taste really sucks lah.

I miss Cheryl, Jodi and Tiffany! When are we meeting up again? Love you girls.
And i miss Joyjoy leh, go out with me also lah XOXO.

To Amanda: Hey, don't shang xin liao okay? Big girls don't cry ahh(:
and you freeeeaking shocked us today, haha, takecare!

Knowing things would never be the same, with your empty heart and mine full of pain.

2009-05-17T16:27:00.001+08:00

Shit.
Thought I could have fun today, okay but who knows?
I'm freaking rotting at home now.
Cheesebunneh.
No plans for June holidays for now, guess I'm gonna stay at home, and rot till I die.

I've been listening to a song, and it reminds me of this particular guy.
My feelings nowadays have been so bloody screwed up, and now i think I've figured it out.
I think I got feelings for him leh...
It'd been long enough, that we have not been contacting each other, i wonder if you have already forgotten me.
But still, I got to wait.
Wait till I get to meet him again.

And I still thinking about that incident on the bus last friday, LMAO!
SiYing and I went up a bus after school, and she brought her YamMilkTea together with her.
As I was climbing up the stairs to the upper deck, I instantly heard SiYing with her vulgars all over the bus.
yah, it isn't surprising that she dropped her MilkTea on the bus.
those passengers looked at her with frowned eyebrows, and she looked at me smiling, and I didn't know what to do.
What can we do lah.!?
And i was pissed and told her,
"DARLING, JUST PRESS THE BELL AND JUST GET DOWN AT THE NEXT STOP."
and she stood there, still smiling and saying what to do, what to do.
"PRESS THAT DAMN BELL!"
she didn't listen to me and went up to the bus conductor.
all she got was scoldings from him and he even wanted her to clean the bus.
see lah darling, that's what you would get if you act smart.
but in the end, she didn't clean up the bus,
we alighted silently at the next bus-stop, the bus conductor didn't realise haha idiot.
I hope he would not recognise us the next time if we ever boards his bus again.

Funny you don't hear, a single word that I've said.

2009-05-14T20:24:00.003+08:00

Sunday's plan, cancelled.
'cause HunQuan can't make it.
HunQuan! be like a man lah! don't so wishy-washy leh!
but anw, we'll still be having a reunion with the clique, so if you don't come, you'll be at loss too.
so you better turn up!
and supposed to catch a movie with ChengYee and SiYing today, but it is postponed.
aye, but i wanna watch the uninvited leh, Joan said it's nice, believe her lah SiYing, don't be so hum for once can? ;D
inter-house games tomorrow, sian!
Gonna be super no life for this period of time, anyone interested to jio me out? ahaha :D

This old heart has just run out of time

2009-05-13T12:20:00.002+08:00

YO.
Siying is pestering me to update my blog, so here i am!
Had my last paper today, and was so embarrassed for smirking in the hall in the middle of the paper, he might think that i'm nuts.
So sad! only Timothy wished me good luck for the paper yesterday, i gan dong 3 xia!
Timothy, you can marry me already lah.
classmates for 6years, schoolmates for another 4 years, wow time flies so fast.
Marry me lah marry me. ;DDD
Siying wants me to swim with her. reason?
because i have a lousy body figure, like her.
WALAO! people got short legs you buaysong?
She's super proud that she got long legs, but Siying, you are still forever my Lui MAOMAO.
heehee.
and strangely, i've been acting like a Texas fat Mama recently. HOW?
and i will never ever forget the Texas joke Siying said, hilarious.
ChengYee and Siying took revenge!
ChengYee lied that she broke up with her boyfriend and Siying lied that Keith was her new boyfriend.
Believed them at first, but i got suspicious later on, ChengYee really don't know how to act ahaha.
but ChengYee, did you really get to know Keith's mercedes driver?
give me leh give me, don't snatch with me(;
and i'm looking forward for this Sunday!

You can tell me that you're sorry, but i don't believe it like i did before.

2009-05-11T15:27:00.004+08:00

My blog, my dead blog. i promise it will be revived after mid year!
4 more papers to go whoots~
i'm just checking for Tekai's mail, and fortunately, the virus did not invade into the state he lives in.
BIG PHEW.
many things had happened, and i'm not gonna share but... hmmm, give me somemore time to think. i just need more time that's all.
and i happened to view your ex's blog, and... erm, maybe it's just the wrong time for us to start off this relationship? it's wayyyyyyyyyyyy too soon.
okayokayokay, shall go study now.

For once i wish that i was blind, so that i would not have to see your hideous face.

For once, i wish that i was deaf, so that i would not have to hear your voice.

For once, i wish that i was Mas Selamat, so that i could simply shoot you dead.

I don't want you to exist in my world.

Sweet Baby Jesus

2009-04-19T18:16:00.002+08:00

Mid-year exams is round the corner. and guess what?
I'M GONNA STUDY!
and this time, it's for real.
but why is it that I'm always repeating this sentence everytime?
"Its for real."
"I'm serious about studying.''
But I'm REAL SERIOUS for this time, okay?
Believe me friends, believe me mum.
but i can't promise that i'll have a magnificent change in my results, but yah.
I'M AIMING FOR 7A1s FOR MY Olevel yup.
and I'm gonna get what I want.
HERE I COME, ALL MY A1s~

I'd give my heart if you'd give your attention.

2009-04-17T21:21:00.002+08:00

Today's most common talked topic is the fight between Siying my darling and Melvin the Gay!
the whole story goes like that... ...
I was having my chinese lesson in class 303, and as usual, was having conversations with XinHorng and YongGuan at the back of the class. and, as usual too, OngJiaYi, ChengYee and SiYing managed to get out of YanYan's class(probably they'd gotten chased out again) and they decided to join my class. and so, SiYing saw Melvin's bag and found some interesting snacks, and because of that, Melvin pulled her hair.
like OMG? Melvin, you are so dead.
you are so gonna die.
SiYing's my darling for so long, and i didn't even dare to touch a strand of her hair.
and what did you just do?
wah even God also cannot help you liao Mel.
SiYing went crazy,"imma get a scissors and cut your hair."
and as she desperately looked for her scissors, all ready to cut his hair away,
and Melvin, too was all ready to defend.
And here, THE GAME BEGINS!
SiYing was fully attacking Melvin, and Melvin grabbed both her arms.
while they struggled, Melvin kicked SiYing in her stomach, and SiYing kicked back.
and you sure know where she aimed!
i'm so proud of you darling.
but the weird thing is... why isn't Melvin in pain?
lol because he got nothing down there you see.
and ya they stopped, and SiYing ended the fight well.
"Can't believe that 'm fighting with a hormosexual."
and i think just these 8 words made the volcano inside Melvin explode lah.
lol and last but not least SiYing splashed him with a whole bottle of water,
and seemed like she didn't aim well,
few people beside kena too hhaa.
and gave him a little surprise too, guess what can he find in his bag?
and later on Ervin msged me why is Melvin so emo.
and Xinhorng even told me that he cried.
OMG, Melvin.
you... CRIED?
cried over this?
lol! the next day you'll find many fingers pointing at you lah seriously.
all i can say is, Melvin, it's time to grow up,we can't blame you if you're a gay but, can't you just be more gentlemen towards girls?
and SiYing, "BU YAO DA WO."
haah.

There's a time for us to let go
There's a time for holding on
A time to speak, a time to listen
There's a time for us to go

I try to remember to forget you, but I break down every time I do.

2009-04-12T14:17:00.011+08:00

FRIDAY
Met up with Denise, Joy and Rachel on Good Friday, as we're going for Evoke your Dreams! Sad to say, i didn't win the iPod. Xue-te. seems like my lucky number 0577 didn't help that much.
met Denise first and made our way to Vivo, and saw Rachel and her classmates there. 305 is having a class outing! 307 ahh, when is it going to be our turn to have one? Shermin, plan one asap bah, our class is not bonded at all luh :X
then Joy came along after her service and met us up. walked and talked, walked and talked. and we spent the hours together, quite sian.
and we bought balloons! the lady is selling them for charity, how awesome is she! she gave me a discount(because she thinks that i'm cute.) and i bought the balloon at 4dollars instead of 6. wahaha.
Evoke your Dreams was fantastic, all the teams performed well. and i still gave my vote to Invading Teddys as i've already promised Matthias, but to me, they only did fairly well. but okay, at least they got to perform for all of us. after the programme ended, went to Rachel's house to stay-over, and found out that both her toilets can't be locked. =.="
like i spent freaking half an hour inside, so afraid that her dad or her brother would open the door lah. i hope her family could get the doors repaired as soon as possible before i get to stay-over at her house again ;D

Rachel teo!

Joy Han Xin!

Denise Koh!

and the four of us.

SATURDAY

It's DADDY's birthday, happy 43th birthday daddy! hope you can learn how to grow up and earn more money for me to spend (((;

wanted to buy him a treadmill as a present, so that he can keep fit and so can i. but i decided to go easy for myself, and buy him dinner at East Coast. the food is marvellous man, you can eat-till-you-drop, and we ate-till-we-drop. Siying! i don't think i'm going to be 53only! :X

and yah bro, it's so happy talking to you and be good to me FOREVER, and you'll get your superb birthday treat for sure haha. when are you going to give me my chocolate and sweets?

i'll be waiting~

Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?

2009-04-08T21:02:00.002+08:00

2.4km run today.
Xue-te!
trained so hard for it, and what?
was last in position.
Thanks ahh thanks.
my time'was 18minutes and 8seconds.
is it suppose to be good?
i think so right?
at least i didn't fail! wahaha i feel sort of proud.
sorry Mr Singh, i've let you down xP.
and after the run i was totally walking like a duck, yahh, like a duck.
Siying, stop the imitating!
and went for the B boys volleyball finals, we got second, okay lah not bad.
it's so hard to get into nationals, so top 2, already very zai liao.
so Xinhorng ahh, it's okay don't be so depress hor, next year must have a different mindset liao [;

What have you been doing lately?

2009-04-06T20:11:00.001+08:00

It's been a minute since I saw you boy

Must admit it's good to hear your voice

And I guess that I forgot just how you make me feel when your around

See you haven't lost your sense of style

And you still could melt me with your smile

Can't deny that I still got these feelin' deep inside

-here i go again by Rihanna

You better get careful or you'll compromise everything.

2009-04-05T17:10:00.002+08:00

Ohh my gosh i freaking hate you!
please get out of my life, i don't want to have anything to do with you, seriously.
you're such a disgrace, do you know?
rrr...
I HATE YOU.

Steadfast in spirit does not mean what you meant you know?

2009-04-01T21:35:00.011+08:00

Ahh, i'm 15 years old now!
1 year older, one year wiser.
NAFA test today, and Mr Singh said that students' birthday before first of April woud be counted as 15 years old. my birthday is the day before that! sad...sad... SAD!
and didn't do much for PE today, only laughed all the way at Ruixian and Siying! lol so unglam leh aiyo...[x (yahh Siying i know you'll be praying hard for me to fall when i't's gonna be my turn.)
no CCA today, thumbs up!
and so i went to catch Confessions of a Shopaholic with Denise, Joey, Joy and Rachel right after school.
and ohh, shall upload the photo which Mr Rogdrigues took during the holidays when we went for the 1star kayaking course.

yeah i'm in the lead! love my eskimo.x3

it was pouring heavily and so we have to find a shelter. Shermin in front, me at the back.

Shermin super enthu in the water!

lol, can spot me?

Close-up of me! okay i can explain. i was super hot on that day and super pissed off 'cause i just can't move my eskimo kayak, it was too heavy for me to even pull it up to the shore.

Love the experience although i didn't manage to get my 1star cert. x}

Little girl don't be so blue, I know what you're going through, Don't let it beat you up.

2009-03-30T20:09:00.005+08:00

Went hougang geen with Kaiwai and Siying for karaoke yesterday.

Really love them a lot, so many things had happened lately, but still they celebrated my birthday, LOVE! x333.

Singing until super high, i remember was S.H.E's I.O.I.O, and the mtv paused on the screen and the lights went off.

Kaiwai and Siying was sitting to close together and was peering outside the door.

OHMYGOSH.

At that instant, i was like so hum and praying for forgiveness.

I'M SORRY CLAUDIA, I'M REALLY SORRY.

and i looked out of the window.

and i saw...

A CAKE!

what the hell, totally freaked me out, i thought i was going to pee in my pants at that exact moment.

Had a glance at the cake delivery guy, woah, not bad ehhz, look quite presentable worhz.

but i couldn''t care less, because the cake is way more important!

then the cake delivery man placed the cake in the table, and stood there.

stood there.

what is he waiting for?

ohh, you want money? erm...

Kaiwai, Siying, why are you all not paying up?
And the cake delivery guy stood there with a smile that melted my heart,

and said HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

"Siying, who is that?"

"KEXIN,DARWIN LARH!"

ohmygosh, it's DARWIN.

Not as ugly as i expected, not as gay as i expected too.

wanted to meet him up for so long, and now he is appearing in front of my eyes, with a cake!
so surprising ehh.

okay, but i think his first impression of mine sucked.

'cause i was rolling and lying and screaming all over the place.

best animal to describe me: a monkey.

hope he won't mind uhh.

Sang a lot, and Darwin really got superb singing talent lorz, i jealous!

Gonna start to listen to Zhang hui mei and Xiao jing teng's "Yi yan shun jian",

'cause i don't know how to sing!

when i learn how to sing then sing with Darwin, i promise wahahaa.

and saw Amanda and co. there, such a coincidence.

She joined us for a couple of songs, and honestly speaking, Darwin and her sing together it's like, WOAH!

The uncle outside can sign contract with them already haha.

Really thanks Kaiwai, Siyng and especially Darwin,

although we don't know each other,

but you're still willing to celebrate my birthday with me.^^

And went to Claudia's wake on Saturday, just after sports day, and yahh, i've already said what i want to say and have to say.

and yahh, she will forgive me, right?

all i wanna say now is, Stay Beautiful, Claudia.

Continue smiling Claudia, stay happy always.

And it's my birthday tomorrow, i'm growing 1 year older! must get more mature liao^^

thanks Timothy, Nicholas, Dewei, Winglun, Chengyee, Siying, Haojie.etc for wishing me early happy birthday. to Timothy, okay i'll stop to disiao-ing.

*And i will drink more water de, 'cause imma good girl!

and you owe me a birthday song okay?

I gotta smile 'cause i deserve to, it will all get better in time.

2009-03-27T21:27:00.004+08:00

Today school was... eerie..? the atmoshere wasn't right.

as soon as i reached rach and co. i saw them crying.
i didn't know what to say.
i feel like i don't have any rights to say anything.
Mdm Liew announced the death of Claudia, and immediately i could sense that many people around me are feeling sorry for Claudia and really miss her a lot.
How old is she? 15 only, and that's how God treated her.
Rach, you really must jiayou and pull through, definitely you wouldn't want Claudia to see you in such a state, right?
Obs people came back, should be happy, but Yongsheng and Zonghan broke down after they heard the piece of news.
Helped out with the board today, really thought it was the best way to make up to her.

Went home with YongSheng after that, had a heart to heart talk with him, really think that he's really very mature, and yahh, took a photo with him so that if one day one of us pass away, we still got a photo or two as memories.

My birthday is coming, but not sure if i would be in the mood to celebrate it. maybe i should just forget it this year, gonna treat it as i'm not growing any older this year. that's the punishment that i could least get i guess?

Tell me why, i can't seem to face the truth.

2009-03-26T21:24:00.003+08:00

I can't believe that you're dead.

damn, how can this happen?

when this piece of news got to me, i'm really stunned.

i don't know what to say, don't know what to do.

CLAUDIA, BLAME ME, YOU CAN BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING.

i remember that we were once good friends,

but because of a guy, we quarrelled and never friends again since then.

because of a guy, a freaking guy.

if we could go back to those times,

i would definitely wish both of the best.

it came too sudden, now that you're dead, i start to feel that being mean to you doesn't make me feel better.

i will only regret in the end.

it's just this morning that i badmouthed you, i'm gonna take back those words and self-punish myself for that.

only now then can i see that you're important to everyone,

including him.

all of us are weeping and crying for you,

how can you be so cruel to leave all your beloved ones here,

and leave us just like that?

i don't know why i cried,

honestly speaking, i want to amend this broken friendship with you,

but it's too late.

it's too late when i realised it.

CLAUDIA, all this happened too soon,

just saw you this morning,

and you didn't even bid farewell,

and you passed away with such unbearably pain.

i will never forget you, and definitely i'll miss you.

although i've so much bad times with you.

i hope you can forgive me,

for all i've done,

for all i've said.

i sincerely hope that you can live a happier life in another world.

Rest in PEACE, and God will bless you.

to all Claudia's friends,

if you hate me for being so mean to Claudia,

i've already apologised and hope could get forgiveness from all of you.

I guess the word SORRY will be most appropriate now.

Lastly i would like to dedicate Byebye by Mariah Carey to those who're affected by Claudia's death.

Somewhere in your mind, real deep in your memory.

2009-03-23T21:30:00.003+08:00

Chinese class today, turned back and chatted with YongGuan and Xinhorng as usual. (Siying you can say whatever you want man lol, i'm not flirting, for sure you know.;D)
Understood more about how guys handle relationships, and shared with them my personal opinions and thoughts.
woah, YongGuan mentioned a word about me, which really got an impact on me man. that word was stucked in my brain for quite some time, and i decided that i should change for the better, not gonna get myself into those weird and confusing relationships that would only hurt me even deeper and end with sad and tragic endings.
the word, VULNERABLE.
I'm a strong girl yahh!
big girls don't cry, i shouldn't cry either.
oh and yup, Tekai's online now,
it's 9.46am there.
SHHH...
he's in class doing biology now.
bye peeps i'm gonna be busy hehe.

Here I am staring at the moon tonight, wondering how you look in this light.

2009-03-22T16:03:00.008+08:00

WEAK LEGS, WEAK ARMS, FEEBLE BODY.
i think my bones are starting t crack a little since camp already.
dragonboating? not my type of sport.
running 22rounds for punishment? not my way of losing weight.
out to IKEA with Charrisa, Chengyee, Michelle and Siying.

and i'm training my patience.

took them 40 minutes to reach IKEA, and me(being as lame as ever) counted the number of taxi before they reach IKEA.

counted the 1ooth, and didn't want to count anymore. it'll be never ending man! lol.

and saw *erhem erhem*. woah such coincidence. Siying said something i still remember and won't forgive her for that.

"He seemed to be more interested in his food than in you kexin."

GO TO HELL DARLING!

he's just starving as you can see. ;X

when can the '05clique reunite? already planned to have the karaoke session this saturday(which was yesterday), and Xinhorng said it was his grandpa's death anniversary. Hunquan? the forever busy man can't seem to have just a day to relax. Kaiwai and Zhiyang are forever steady man. i want an outing ASAP! really miss the times we spent for the past 2 years, how crazy we could be in class yahh.

and to Darwin. if you're reading my blog AGAIN, please don't say girls with specs jiu cannot make it. some girls without specs cannot make it already leh haha.

anw hope to see you soon, really wanna hear how well you can sing ;D

I'm starting to get very pissed off with you, why can't you just tell me everything?
I'm not that close to you so please don't expect me to read your mind.

All i want is to talk to you and to know you more, but not mind-read you.

You know i can't.

It's great chatting with you, but I'm not your toy.

don't just talk to me when you feel like it and ignore me when you don't.

Maybe I'm expecting too much from you,

you're not him, you both are way too different.

but I'm lying to myself that you are.

I guess only he can make me feel better, not you.

and lying to myself only makes me feel more desperate,

for you.

NOTHING I COULD EVER DO TO MAKE YOU SEE, WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME.

2009-03-18T15:59:00.003+08:00

I miss you.

i miss you so much.

i'd been a year or so, and i yearn to see you again.

but everything's gonna be the same.

we'll be seperated like before, again.

and i've to bear the pain to see you leave.

we didn't bid farewell that time, and i regretted.

but...

what if we did?

i can't bear to see you go, can't bear to see you leave like that.

will it be better if i don't see you once more?

i'm lost, very lost.

EDGE OF A BROKEN HEART

2009-03-14T21:28:00.002+08:00

Drill competition today! have been practising for months for this day, and well, we got a silver. i'm not sure if i should say that's the result i wanted a not, because i have no target. whatever it is, no matter what the results are, we're still like a defeated contingent, the conflicts between us are like never-ending man, and for sure that is, we've got no team spirit at all. had totally no emotions today, basically i just stone throughout the whole competition, and i had only shown the frustration when we have to do drill in the multi-purpose hall because of the rain. that's all. i'm like a non-living thing breathing in air luh. no emotions, no nothing. what to say to the contingent? you guys did great, but as an individual, not as a whole. but really thanks for not letting the officers down.
I'm gonna be SUPERSUPERSUPER busy during the holidays! ahhahh.
TOMORROW!
not sure if i'm still gonna do my shopping with Joey, Joy and Rach... and after that in the late evening i'm going to Arleen's birthday party with LuiSiying! steamboat steamboat i'm anticipating~
tired! i'm going to bed, bye! don't miss me too much.

ANOTHER LAST CHANCE

2009-03-08T15:56:00.003+08:00

I DON'T MAKE EMPTY PROMISES!

Yes, get it right. addicted to katy perry's thinking of you.

here goes the lyrics. SING ALONG!

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed

You said move on where do I go

I guess second best is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if you were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy with a surprise center

How do I get better once I've had the best

You said there's tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips I taste your mouth

He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if you were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I was looking into...

You're the best and yes

I do regret

How I could let myself let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through

And bust in the door and take me away

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

RAIN DRAIN MY PLAY AWAY

2009-03-05T19:07:00.004+08:00

LUISIYING!

It's Tekai's birthday today! happy birthday yup? hope he's not feeling very lonely in America man, it's like one year since i have last seen him i guess?
Xinmin's Got Talent today was inspiring man, Xuezhen really did a great job singing and dancing, aiseh so talented.
Inspired by Ruihorng too man, he's singing rocks! wahaha.
Mr ThreeFourFive, a real madness driving us nuts. a piece of useless homework not done and you'll get a detention for it, a few pieces of homework not done and he'll ring up your parents and nag and nag and nag and nag and just simply NAG at all the flaws he could find in you, give him a few stares, and you would probably notice that in the next few lessons you'll be sitting at the back of the class(right, siying?). and fancy complaining to ms kuck 'bout our behaviour... tomorrow's lesson, prepare for the worst barhz hahahahahahaha.

HUMMING A SICKENING TUNE

2009-03-02T20:00:00.003+08:00

EMO.EMO.EMO.EMO.EMO.EMO.EMO.EMO.... it just go on and on man, can't believe that my mood could be that affected by my own sensitivity. yahh whatever. xO.

the question of the day: WHEN IS A GUY THE MOST CHARMING?
my answer: when he's soundly asleep. i bet they will look oh-SO charming!(Chengyee and me got telephathy leh, great minds think alike!)
Siying's answer:the moment when he is about to kiss you(stop being so dreamy darling, jon will never ever kiss you again i think:X!)
the wierdest answer:when the guy is up to shore after a swim, with drips of water tickling down his biceps, no matter how ugly his hair could be, we still could find charm in him.(contributed by K.Y.G)
lol imagination too wild uhh.
any other wierd answers anyone wanna contribute? lol please share please share!

social studies test tomorrow, wish me good luck everyone ;D

EVERYTHING WAS A LIE

2009-02-28T21:48:00.004+08:00

PLEASE PRESS FLUSH

Try to read the 3 words out loud as fast as you can. lol, bet all of you have your tongues tangled now, hahaz, credit all goes to Hongjoo the stupid no life guy, he came out with this yahh lol.

Haix, drill competition is round the corner, the contingent is still slacking... we can say buhbye to COP already yup? don't say i'm losing faith in the coy, but it's just that the sec 4s are not cooperating enough, i'm not talking about you jasmine, i know you've tried your best and all of us can see it. i wanna talk about this particular senior, QUILA. quila, sorry if i'm not showig enough respect to you though you are my senior, but you don't deserve any respect from me anw. all of the sec3 GB girls have eyes to see that jasmine is trying hard for the drill comp, and look at you, what are you doing? all you know is to procrastinate and talk bad about jasmine behind her back, when jasmine lost her book, it's okay for you not to find for the book, but it's wrong of you to mock at her when she's searching high and low for the book, isn't it? i'm telling you, jasmine does not deserve the way you treat her now, and you jolly well cooperate with her, for god's sake.

New friend today! got to knoe yunyi from yuying sec. yunyi, you gotta cheer up man, although i don't know the reason that you're crying. SMILE~

Ahh, tomorrow's movie with Charrisa,Michelle,Chengyee,Siying is cancelled, because siying's sick. oh, what a pity. siying's down with a fever, hope she's feeling better now. ;D

Been to the library today.(don't give me your shocked face!it's totally okay for me to be in the library yahh?) Borrowed this book because miss Siva said we'd better get started reading stories written by locals. i didn't know local texts could be that interesting! really have to turn over a new leaf and get an A for my literature in my O levels next year^^

Zone bonding... to go, or not to go? tough decision to make, going would be awkward as i'm not that close to anyone, and not going means that i've to stay at home for the whole of the saturday next week. might as well jump off a building? i've gotta decide on it seriously man.

...

DESTINY RELIES ON ME

2009-02-22T16:02:00.003+08:00

Updates!

Sort of busy this whole week, so stop blaming me for not updating!

It's all 'bout literature this week, having a test ths hursday, but only read 5 of the 11 stories in the book, wish me good luck everyone. LUISIYING forgot to bring her lit book home, hahaz, LOL at you.>.<

Haven't been seeing SARAH JANE for about 2,3 weeks, ahhh, miss her so much! hot gossips with her yesterday, lol, sounds like she's been enjoying her school life so far. LOVE my sister! xO

okay, shall stop here, siying's currently sharing hot gossips with me hahahahaha, you can't get any of them.

DREAMS WILL COME AND GO.

2009-02-15T16:52:00.004+08:00

How's everyones' valentine's day? bet they rock uhh lol.
happy for those who reported to me how blissful they are with their beloved ones man xD.
mine?
sucked terribly.
why?
'cause no one seem to remember me, and i'm desperately hoping that my bro would call me, but he didn't. BRO! i really wanna poke your butt someday man, you're just so not initiative, and i hate it,
TOTALLY.
and you still got the cheek to say you didn't really wanna call me, like, L-MAO?
you you didn't really wanna call me that day because it was valentine's day...
GREAT.
and to those who failed to jio their girl/boy-of-his/her-dream, don't be upset~!
you can always talk to me, i can cheer you up! hahaz ^^

Met up with kaiwai, fengwei and kenny to complete english ATT today, left halfway as i'm out to shop! i'm feeling guilty that i didn't complete the entire project with them, so i'm sincerely sorry 'bout that KAIWAI. forgive me? xP.

Better wake up little sleepy head,

The big old world will pass us by,

So many things we could do instead,

Get what you want with your lucky eyes.

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

2009-02-12T20:57:00.004+08:00

Today is an inspiring day. why i said that? mdm yurni inspired me. sad to say that she's leaving, as she needs to take care of her mother suffering from some illness that can't get her any better. it's such a pity for her not to teach us! it's not that she's got a great and wonderful teaching methods and skills, and i can admit that i often doze of in her class 'cause i just can't stand the boredom she had created, but the weird, tingling feeling inside me when she announced that she was leaving was just...weird. so weird. like i would miss her so much just on the next day, and i wanted her to come back to teach us literature ASAP. and mdm yurni, we promise you that we would treat our mommy better before the day we regret yeapz? hahaz and lil siying shed tears upon listening to the touching words mdm yurni said.
and once again i would like to thank my ahgong, KAIWAI, for the eeyoor~
THANK YOU 3 TIMES LAH! WHY 3 TIMES? BECAUSE 1 TIME IS NOT ENOUGH xD.

I get so tired,

Of the world passing by me.

Makes me want to jump out of my skin..

LIFE'S A BITCH, AND SO AM I

2009-02-05T20:18:00.004+08:00

Sorry for not updating like.. one whole week??? got some naggings from siying and chengyee,''can you please update your blog?"
i wanna write a long post about minjian, 'cause he's sort of upset that i didn't write any praises 'bout him in my blog. but i'm not gonna wirte it now, it seems to be the wrong time writing it, because today he's pissing me off by his childish acts. so, MINJIAN, treat me better in the future if you want praises of yourself on my blog.
currently having a stomachache, already tolerating the pain for the past few days, someone help!
okayy, bye people, i'm going off to do my big business, all thanks to the tummyache ahhz. xD

Looking in your eyes,

It's written on your face,

I can read your mind,

You feel the same as me,

it's time you face the truth,

You're in love with me,

and I think it's time that you come around.

SOME FUN OUT OF LIFE

2009-01-26T16:22:00.008+08:00

firstly, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone out there. ;D

yeap, and it's just gonna be a very short post, as i'll be busy collecting my angbaos later! hee. it's 4.29pm now, and i've not ate my lunch yet, i'm not gonna eat it anw. i guess LUISIYING is now munching dozens and dozens kilogram of food and tidbits down her throat ehz? then good luck darling! i shall see you limp into the class because of your overweight body size. hehez*EVIL GRIN*

and i really wanna express my gratitude here to TANQIAOYI, for putting so much time and effort in designing my shoes and charging it at a very low price(:

my grandma thought i wore my shoes wrongly as one side is pink and the other's not. GRANDMA! it is designed to be like that. =.='

BYE PEOPLE, I SHALL CONTINUE TO COLLECT MY ANGBAOS^^

SAVE ME ROMEO

2009-01-25T19:03:00.006+08:00

remember i said yesterday that i flew kites with my young cousin? and guess what? he bumped into some soul/spirit/ghost/demon while flying the kite. we infer that he had pee on the spot without saying excuse me to those 'things' or whatever so, and he's a lil sick now, and he claimed that he had a nightmare last night. hmm... i guess i shall not go to the exact same spot to fly kite today anymore, not that i HUM or anything alrightz?! i'm just protecting myself from danger, and i wouldn't want anything bad to happen to me too. xD

went to a shopping mall today, and i hate it most when the sales assistants communicate with me in MALAY, and i'm not kidding, in MALAY. like lol? are you guys talking 'bout? do i look like a freaking malay to you? do i look as if i understand malay? i could only understand BALIK KAMPONG suckers! and i'm really homesick and desperately wanna go home. i swear i miss all of you in singapore man.. see i so love you guys! >.<

that's the reason why i didn't purchase anything after patrolling for a few precious hours! that is purely wasting my sweet time! and i'm telling you that i'm not going in there ever again, this would be the first and the last time there, and i mean it. and that's why i gave the mall a surprise farewell, i broke one of the sample photo frame. okay, i was actually pulling your leg, i broke it accidentally. i just merely knocked into it and it dropped to the ground before i could react. it wasn't broken, just the diamond flower came off from it. i was reluctant to pick it up. i mean, it's already spoilt, and somemore it's just a sample. why not just leave it lying there and sneak out of the mall before anyone could notice my irresposible act? and that's what i did. like LOL! and can tell you that they too have poor security man. poor study system, poor environment, poor mall, poor salesman and even poor security!

hehez. i just laugh my big ass off.

yeahz cool, shall stop here, x3 all of you.

YOU HAVE WON MY HEART AND I AM YOURS

2009-01-24T18:22:00.008+08:00

i'm currently at kuala lumpour, sian! so sian, i wanna come back man~and it's raining angbao here man! xPPP. shiok ahhz.

i'm like so no life there lorz, no tv shows that i love to watch, no nearby shopping mall for new year's shopping spree, no tidbits as i've made a resolution specially for chinese new year, which is not to feed on any of the tidbits, the reason is obvious, that i've to cut down my weight. i've got to tolerate real long for this season, so wish me good luck in persevering man.

had some snapshots of me and my sister, as we were already bored to tears.

just came back aftr flying kites with my suave cousin, really enjoys it! but i got a cut on my left middle finger 'cause the string had cut me when i'm flying my mermaid kite. but who cares? i'm gonna fly again tomorrow~

i miss so many of my friends back at singapore, especially my BRO! i wonder where is he now...

BRO I LOVE YOU! >.<

can't wait to see him again.

i've got so much to express deep within me,

but i can't voice out those complex feelings.

it's like there's million of colourful jigsaw pieces picturing my life full of wonder,

but that just covers up the surface of me.

underneath the suface shows a dull and liveless character.

i've always wanted to share my fears and worries with a person

who truly understands and is keen to listen to me,

like nobody ever does...

THE ONE WHO LAUGHS LAST LAUGHS BEST

2009-01-23T19:14:00.003+08:00

Got to know one new friend, name's LESLIE. lol, currently msging him right now, and guess what? he never stead before lehz! lol, pure and innocent, but i won't eat him up larhz, girls who's in love with him, don't worry 'bout that (:
and Jingpang kena caned twice in a row today, adding up to 5strokes just in this week. he never seems to learn from his mistake, getting caned from sec1 to until now. i witnessed him getting caned, and i'm sure it'll hurt damn a lot! the sound impact the caned made was awful to the ears. YUCK. and Hunquan came back school to visit us! We found out that we missed him quite a lot since the day he had been gone. got a few picture outside class205 with him, but Xinhorng went off in a hurry without sending us the pictures! damn it. so i'm gonna upload them when i get to see him on wednesday when school reopens~
and ya, lynette cheah is not in the pictures fyi, how sad uhh? :X
i'm so mean! but i can't help it you see.
;DDD

TORTURING DAY IN MY LIFE

2009-01-21T21:25:00.003+08:00

Early in the morning when i just got off from my dad's car, the first person i laid my eyes on was MR.DIAN-SI-REN. aww, i just go weak on the spot when i looked into the pair of magically mesmerising eyes... ^^ he made the start of the day so wonderful for me~
and JOYJOY told me that LYNETTE CHEAH is quite a hot topic among the students' hot gossip and talks this week. so here i am, just wanting to thank lynette for increasing my blog hits like 3times of the normal unique views, and lynette cheah should thank us too, for making her so famous in school, and everyone was desperate,"what happened to all of you?","how's she now?","she deserve it","lol, you guys are so straight-forward","i saw her today, she diao-ed me lehz!","wahh she very kelian know?",... stuffs like that, i'm sick and tired of answering them.
yishun town volleyball boys came to xinmin today! i kept a look out for FERDENIN, can't forget that day when we eye-contacted each other! okayy, but sad to say, he's attached.):
haven't been staying in the sports hall for 5 minutes, and i gotta leave for my cca. SIAN LA! can't see ferdenin set, block and run. i'm determined to stay for the next match their playing in xms!
haven't even started the cca, and mdm said that we were 10 minutes later and hence gotta run 10 rounds, like, what the...? it was miserable for me, firstly, i gotta run in that ugly dress/gown/pyjamas/cheongsam, whatever you call it, but i call it the apron. secondly, running in the parade square with that apron??? totally disgraceful, i just hope that nobody would recognise me and just turn invinsible. running that 10 rounds was an acheivement for me. i did not eat for recess/lunch and still could complete that 10 rounds, it's like AMAZING.
when i heard that CHERIE failed her attire, i got very pekcek with her and so i didn't realise that i was unknowingly diao-ing her, like lol, she cried? i mean, hello, it's your fault that you didn't pass your uniform check, and because of you we've to run 15 rounds? still got the cheek to cry. LMAO. a girl like me, once having my apron to be 3 fingers above my knees, could simply pass my uniform check today, which means i put in effort not to let everyone be punished because of me, but how 'bout you? you're selfish, and a girl like you should not be forgiven, tha't's why i rose my hand when mdm asked if you should run alone. did you cry to make mdm to pity you? then save it, she won't, we won't too.
i'm so excited! gonna collect my designed shoe from QIAOYI, really anticipates it.

LYNETTE CHEAH, GO TO HELL

2009-01-19T20:59:00.004+08:00

All i can say is, thanks for the memories these 2 years.

YEAH~ settled with LYNETTE CHEAH XIN YI, everyone out there, feel free to talk to siying and me, we're harmless, 'cause lynette is no longer our friend now. LYNETTE, i know you would read my blog, so this whole long post is for you to read, read it once, or twice, maybe thrice, this post will always be in my history, you can come back to my blog and search for this post when you're in your 20s, and if you're afraid that my blog would expire, maybe you'ld like to copy and print this post out if you want. do whatever you want with it, babe.

It seems like me and siying can't bear to flare up at you because after all, we're once darling, and i mean, ONCE. but since we're not face-to-face talking now, it would be much easier for me in expressing myself, i could not imagine what words would i bring myself to say if i'm looking at your face, 'cause it's unpresentable.

LYNETTE CHEAH, thought i saw you smiling to us today, are my eyes playing tricks??? how could you possibly smile at us? i mean, don't you think it's a lil too ridiculous, the hatred is still there, and it haven't even been 1 week and there you are thinking that everything is back to normal? like, HAHA at you! i think it's just a lil too early for us to be normal friends isn't it? SUCKER, and a BIG one.

And 1 thing that i forgot to mention that day, remember once we were in the toilet last year, and you smirked with your typical look-at-me-i'm-staring-at-you expression at 1 sec 1 girl for folding her skirt 3-4 times, don't you remember you used to fold your skirt 5, 6 times when you were sec 1? you're just a big joke. you're trying so hard to act lian and cool, siying and i can see that, but you don't know that you're such a big laughing stock to everyone! like LYNETTE, it's obvious that the whole world hates you, are you so DUMB that you don't even realise it? don't think you're the chio-est among the 3 of us and hence all the guys would love you more or whatever you like to say, that's not it LYNETTE, that's not it, and in fact, they treasure us more. WHY? just look at your attitude. and heard from a lot of people that you're now a loner, no way far from those nerds that you used to despise uhh? why can't you socialise a bit? i mean hey girl, is it that hard to socialise? of course it's not any of my problem if you don't but it's just a friendly advice from me, anw, i don't gain anything by saying that, SOCIALISE, have you even seen this word before? i doubt so.

you're pathetic.

AWAITING TOMORROW...

2009-01-13T21:10:00.003+08:00

Today is a sian day, the girl in the same tuition as me was diao-ing me with her big big eyes, i HATE it! she's looking at me like how normal guys on the streets of geylang would look at those cheap sluts. i so NOT like the way she looked at me OKAY???!!! and i'm gonna gouge them out one day. [;
i want tomorrow to be a better day, and i know it would. the day i long-waited for would be TOMORROW. and i promise i'm gonna write a long long post of dedication to that one person who's very important to my life ^^
You shall wait and see!

Tomorrow marks a very special day in my life,

and it would be the time when i could live my life as it is,

without any fear or hatred...

A DAY OUT WITH MY SUPER CLIQUE!

2009-01-12T20:33:00.008+08:00

Hasn't been updating my blog for a few days! thought of posting yesterday night 'bout the gathering our '05 clique had, but decided to do it today. Yesterday it was sort of the last meeting we ae going to have with HUNQUAN, 'cause he'll be very busy wit his work once he starts schooling in NJC. so he should count himself fortunate for having such GREAT friend, like US. (;

THE SUPER 05 CLIQUE!~ and i found out that i'm quite short standing with them...):
(when did this even happen??)

LUI SI YING i love you x333 *goosebumps EVERYWHERE!*

MR YAP XINHORNG AND MEMEMEMEMEMEMEME!

yeahz, this is KAIWAI and MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME^^

ZHIYANG with a super-FAKE smile on his face(seems like he's unwilling to take a photo with me. *sobs*)

HUNQUAN, we'll miss you so damn much although sometimes you're acting like a fool and piss us off :X

could already imagine how he look like when he get those braces off~

i've been wanting to scream and shout at you for a very long time already,

and it seems like you''re very slow and doesn't even know that you're testing my patience,

and it also seems like you're not taking your own initiative to back off.

don't let us try to do mean things to you,

'cause we don't wanna hurt your feelings.

so i hope that you can just...

SHOO.

ATTIRE CHECK SUCKS.

2009-01-08T21:06:00.003+08:00

It was early in the morning, and the school had meant what they said, to have an attire check. lol, was worrying 'bout whether teacher would pass my skirt, 'cause no matter how i pull my skirt down forcefully, it's still above my knees. but it seems like it was my lucky day, i'm streamed into a lucky class with lucky teachers, my co-form teacher(still can't remember her name though :X) was being very nice to the class, she didn't catch a single student of my class, and i'm rather glad 'bout that. so many people from other classes were caught! lol, and XINHORNG got his hair cut, and was whining 'bout his xinmin slope. "my hair was 8cm, now cut until 2cm, everywhere also slope, TA MA DE!" he practically can't stop complaining 'bout his hair. didn't get to see his hair today, so i'm just gonna enjoy laughing hardhard at him during tomorrow's chinese lesson...^^
Had our first pure literature class of the year, and it was like a whole hypnotic 2hour lesson for me and JOEY TAY, and mdm yurni decided to pick on the new girl from indonesia, they were having a hot catfight in the class, all of us can see, it's obvious. i thought SIYING and CHENGYEE were very enthusiastic in the catfight uhh? lol.
SHERMIN is a lil sick i guess, down with a slight fever and stomach diarrhoea, hope that she'll be feeling better tomorrow. [:

REFECTION OF THE DAY OF SIANESS

2009-01-07T20:00:00.004+08:00

Haven't been posting these few days after school reopened! i'm bloody busy with my cca and school... i seriously need a lot of sleep... *YAWNS*
Anyway, i found out that CEON retained also! so disappointing lorz, told him to buck up, hope he really can listen to me and do his best.
School is fine, but i'm sitting beside MINJIAN! can die lah! i already had my head knocked twice by him. he's a totally lame guy, and yesterday was the funniest, he fell asleep throughout the day, SHERMIN, SIYING and me had a great time laughing at him. Other than that, the class was okay, i only thought that it was a lil quiet. :X
But this class ain't a class! i'm like running up and down all the time changing classes lah. i've to go 303 for HCL, 306 for elective geog, somewhere for literature and somewhere for english. i'm like studying more than half of my subjects in another class with another bunch of aliens i don't know!
Heard 'bout the new teacher MS.DORA LEE, she's already as old as my grandma but we still address her as a MISS, this is so sad. and heard that she has given a lot of trouble to many of the students she taught, so i think i gotta beware of her if she ever walks into my class. she even labelled class 301 as the low standard or no standard class... if 301 isn't, which class is? this teacher is totally unreasonable and really needs some knocking into her sense. good luck to the students she'll be teaching ahh~ ^^
there'll be uniform check conducted during morning assembly tomorrow, i hope i can pass it, I CAN PASS IT!

I'M NOT FAT BUT JUST WELL-FED

2009-01-04T21:11:00.004+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHH! haven't purchase my school bag yet, dickies bag is out of stock! checked with 77th street of compasspoint and parkway parade, both are out of stock... seems like i gotta bring my old school bag to school for the moment... SIAN! i would be going back to compasspoint on the 10th or 11th to check for the bag again. hope i could find it. x)))
And DEREK, i'm not fat, stop saying i'm fat alrightz??? i hate you for saying that.

GETTING TO KNOW MY NEW CLASS

2009-01-02T20:49:00.005+08:00

the first day of school... what am i suppose to say? went to school early in the morning, saw old friends wearing long pants. like, lol at everyone of you! okayy, among all the guy friends, i tought that TIMOTHY NG was awesome. i mean, although he's short, he could still wear his long pants with style but not like drooping down his waist of something like that. hahaz, maybe we should give him a round of applause. heard that most of the guys complained that they didn't really like to wear long pants, MINJIAN said that he finally get to wear long pants after waiting for 10 years(kindergarden=2years, primary school=6years, lower sec=2years; do the calculation yourself). some weird logic of his. my form teacher, miss kuck and some chinese teacher i don't really remember. xP. there's only 31 or 32 studentin our class, so i hope that we could be as united as other classes. (haven't experienced unity for quite a few years le.)

Assembly and talks, totally killing me with boredom. rather study then to listen to a whole lot chunk of messages. AWW! GIVE ME A BREAK~ was sitting right next to NA classes, shocked to see ISAAC LIAO sitting with 309. ohh, so he got retained. but i know he's a good boy, and he promised me to be guaiguai. hope he really does what he says. sec 1 CCA orientation, darn, we will have to wear our full uniform... shall just dig a hole a bury into it.

got a picture with JOYHAN, lol, jusy just purely cute. love her lots.x3

yeahz and took bus back home with RACHEL and IVY OH{:

YARHZ THAT'S MY SEAT FYI.

A COUNTDOWN THAT I HATED MOST

2009-01-01T20:24:00.003+08:00

The first post of the year ! Unfortunately i've to say that the 2008 countdown wasn't really that great for me. no fanciful parties, no fun and games, no gathering, no NOTHING. spent the whole night alone at home. a lil sad for myself, you too think so? blame me for not going for the watchnight at church? frankly speaking, i don't really regret not attending it, though it's kinda lonely on my side. 'cause i rather be alone than to be with one bunch of people that i'm not really close or interested in. sorry if any sec 2 zone cell members ever reads this post. don't misjudge me yeahz? ;X kinda senseless and pointless staring at the flat screen like a fool, so i turned off the tv and listened to my mp3. then i came across the song
彩虹 sang by jaychou. no longer a big fan of him, but i'm still Addicted to this song, 'cause the lyrics did rang a bell of someone i really miss a lot.(people out there close to me, you should know xP) was thinking 'bout the past, the ups and downs. he was important to me. we haven't really been contacting each other that often now. he had called me once and i would never ever forget the time. it was 10pm here on a saturday and 9am there. was wishing he's voice would be the first thing i would hear this year, but it wasn't. it was ERVIN SIM. i mean, hey retard, does he even remember you? and what time is it on the other side of the globe? 11am? i'm sorta glad but upset when Ervin called me. okay, we're sorta stuck in the same situation, he's at home, i'm at home. nobody msgs him, nobody msgs me. well......GREAT then. we talked a lil bit, and at last didn't really wanna talk, so both of us cut the line.
yeah, so my first day of the year wasn't that great uhhz? it's fine anw, i just need to ensure that chinese new year would not be too disappointing for me, more angbao money ahhz ^^ anw, school's gonna reopen tomorrow, hope that the discipline masters and teachers would make our lives easier. NO SCOLDING, NO CATCHING, NO DETENTION-ING, NO STAYING BACK, NO CALLING OF PARENTS, NO TEACHING, NO NAGGING, NO HOMEWORK, NO CANING, NO STANDING OUTSIDE OF CLASS like how MR ARTHUR LEE like to punish us.
PEACE!

BREAKFAST AND GOSSIPS WITH LUISIYING!

2008-12-31T14:47:00.007+08:00

woke up at 8.30am this morning, though i wanted to wake up a lil bit later . then met siying at compasspoint for breakfast. we ate at mac, and gossip a lot too. DAMN! she really knows a lot of things that i don't even know 'bout. saw my primary school foe there too, CHUAYILING. siying freaked out after hearing her idiotic name hahaz. i OH-SO envy sixuan's new hairstyle! it was better than my sis lehz. serious speaking, she look like a model. xOxO. went to purchase my school bag for next year but to no avail... haix, don't know what bag should i buy lehz??? first day of school, the lousiest day of my life... i was slacking with siying while i suddenly remember that it was MR. YEONG JING PANG's birthday, and we sent him a msg wishing him happy birthday. lol, he called me and was talking so 'ji dong' on the phone. lol, he was so suprised that we remembered his birthday. hahaz. anw, i hope that siying's hamster would grow up healthily luh! i have recieved the bad news, i'm in class 307! okayy, i've never thought that i would enter this class, but yea, SADDED. found out that SIYING, RUIXIAN, JIAHUI, CHENG YEE, ZHEKANG would be my future classmates, okayy, quite elated as i know their good people {: so, wish me good luck in that class^^

ALL 'BOUT MY HAMSTERS~

2008-12-30T13:39:00.020+08:00

MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME!

Guess i woke up too early today..! 7plus lehz, eyebags, EYEBAGS! rrr...
okayy a bit siao liaoz. took a few pictures of my baobei hamsters today.

this is GUAIKIA, my puipui hamster who needs to exercise more ^^

PAIKIA. sleep until like that O.o

Cute right cute right??? they are both male and already 12 weeks plus old, anyone willing to let their hammies mate with mine? i want them to have lots of children wahahaa~

And damn it, MR.YAP XIN HORNG has not msged me yet, i'm so vexed 'bout the class allocation! either 306 or 307, since there's only 2 class for combined... but i don't wanna be in 307! it's the last express class know??? bit it's okay, i'm ready to strive hard hard with MS.LUI SI YING, 'cause i know she would too [:

LEARN TO APPRECIATE

2008-12-29T20:30:00.007+08:00

Ahhz, it seems like everyone knows my blog from siying's, so i would like to thank siying for her notorious blog~
I met up with JAYSEN PAY HAO JIE before cca to pass each other christmas present, and he gave me a jansport bag.
he's wearing a cute cap that i love it a lot, maybe he would like to give me that as my birthday present, i don't mind xPPP.
this's the bag he gave me, ermmm... i think it's a lil boyish, and i got quite a few comments that it looks old-fashioned, complicated, blahblahblah. but anw, it's the thought that counts, i guess..? heez.
Went to MINDS today to do my cip, it was to clean up the children's wing, not a difficult task to me at all (;
ISABEL CHANG BAO KE, all thanks to you, my malcolm chose you. RIGHT. Malcolm should be the youngest among the kids, and he's OH-SO cute, i mean it. he got bright eyes, big warm smile and a very strong character. i tried many many ways to get his attention, smiling at him, winking at him, NO USE AT ALL. He went up to Isabel and held her hands, i'm so mad at you ISABEL! i bet Joy han would be even madder i guess, lol at you.
Anw, i'm not sure whether the children's wing had clean up the place before, 'cause it's just so dirty and dusty beyond description! but with so many people there to help, it wasn't really a big problem anymore.
Dismissed at 'bout 4plus, and saw Yongguan, Gabriel and YAP XIN HORNG at the busstop before the school, and Yongguan was anxiously talking on the phone 'bout the class allocation, LOL. saw Xinhorng's braces! so decided to take a picture of it.
look at those shiny teeth!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahhahahhaahaha, look at his ugly mouth. took bus 74 with him, and talked a bit, laughed a bit. okay, i admit that he's gonna look very shuai once that braces is off his mouth, we shall see 'bout it larhz~! xDDD.
SHALL STOP HERE~~~~~~

MUFFIN LOVER

2008-12-28T17:56:00.001+08:00

Woke up at 9 plus today, and acknowledged my family with a big yawn~ *YAWN* (seems like i'm already getting the DEWEI disease). Saw dad sticking a stream of ants with scotch-tape in the kitchen, YUCK! So i asked him where they come from, and he said,''i don't know, they didn't bring their identification cards along.'' like, wth? He definitely has a great sense of humour, lol, i love my dad OH-SO much. i now my mum's gonna get so jealous if she ever reads this, and i know she would, so mum, i love you too, but sometimes you're just such a pain! :XXX

Yesterday at the bowling centre, Cheeyeo asked me if i've eaten the muffin Jolene had made, i have not, and decide to try it today.

i want more, i DEMAND more!!!

STARRING MY FIRST POST!

2008-12-25T14:36:00.001+08:00

heyy all!
it's christmas, and i've got nothin' better to do(no life in short).
so TADA! i created a blog!
hmm... creatin' a blog on christmas... not a bad idea orhz?
must tag me okayy???
okayy, shall post some other time, buhbye and MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!